Pow! Right In The Kisser

That terrifying moment when you realise youre too in love to turn back now. And, i would never want to turn back, my only fear is that one day he will and ill be left a mere shadow of who i once was. I fear i would never recover. I would be so broken. How could i ever live without you? It’s a paralyzing thought. The way i feel, it feels like an entirely new emotion. So strong, surely noone has felt this way about anyone before? All my hopes and dreams are now riding on someone elses shoulders. Everything i hope for and want for my future now have everything to do with you. If i lose you, i lose more than just love. I lose hope. That is absolutely terrifying. But im in too deep to ever be able to switch it off if the time comes where i need to. Ive never been the kind of girl thats desired to be a wife, and mother, a homemaker. Im young. This is the 21st century. But now all i dream of is our life together. I want nothing more than to marry you. To have kids with you. To make a life with you. I wanna grow old with you. I used to get excited thinking about all the adventures i would have with my friends. And of course its still exciting. But, now its you i imagine by my side. Everywhere i dream to go i cant imagine going without you. I miss you the second you walk out my door. This love I have for you is intoxicating. I feel so overcome by it. I feel i literally have no control anymore. Its so scary. And i know I should live for the now, and enjoy this wonderful relationship I have, but this anxiety builds everytime youre away that makes the pessimist in me think about all the horrible what ifs. I just want this life to go as planned. If nothing else in my life goes right, all i honestly care about is keeping you and living appily ever after. I dont care about career, or money, or success of any kind. My greatest accomplishment was finding you. I love you.